I hate having to make excuses. Sure, life gets busy, and we all have life situations that pull us in multiple directions, and we never get to do everything we want to do. But I miss spending time here. I love to write, and this blog provides a daily opportunity to scratch that writing itch. But I'm not able to make that time to do it.
"Time and tide wait for no man." - Geoffrey ChaucerI work a pretty stressful job, and it requires a lot of time and effort. So much so, that it has impacted my health in a fairly significant negative way. I find myself not sleeping well, and I deal with stress and hypertension requiring medication for high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes, and even my hair is thinning very quickly. My boss is very demanding, and because I tend to have responsibility as the top value in my makeup, it drives much of this stress since I never feel as if I am doing enough, or as good a job as I want with whatever it is I'm doing. In addition, there is a lot of travel that I am required to take, and I just returned from the first of four trips in the next four months, three to Oklahoma City, which is where I was all this week. These are not pleasure trips.
Being a single father with an almost-teen daughter only adds to that stress, no matter how wonderful I think she is. I can never give her enough of my time, the time she deserves, and I constantly feel like I need to make up for the fact she doesn't have a mother in her life. How can I possibly do enough?
Add to all of this the Stanley Cup playoffs, and, well.... Let's just say that being a diehard sports fan isn't all fun and games, even though that's what it is meant to be.
Anyway, It was a difficult week, and I'm tired, and I found myself catching up on email this evening and I realized that the blog is just sitting here... waiting. I don't even know if anyone is out there still reading this stuff. And, if so, you deserve better for taking your own time to read my gibberish.
That said, please don't give up on me. I desire to do so much better.
1 Peter 5:10 - "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
I've been suffering for a little while, but I firmly believe that God will restore me, and I intend to spend this weekend doing the things I want to do. And my daughter and I will enjoy ourselves, and I will for get all about this past week, and I remain hopeful that the best is yet to come. Life is best.
Have a great evening, everyone!
